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Pre-Eclampsia [04 Sep 2007|05:36am]
So August 25th was my baby shower, and during/after it I swelled up horribly. My ankles were like, GONE. I elevated my feet, rested, drank some water, and they went down. It unnerved me a little, since prior to that I really hadn't had any swelling, but it went down, so I figured I was fine.

A few days later, I had a doctors appointment, and before going to it, I decided I ought to weigh myself on my home scale just to assess the damage. I had gained 10 POUNDS in 2 weeks. My eating habits hadn't changed at all, and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

I hit google and read about Pre-Eclampsia, and started to get really nervous. I went to my doctors appointment, and my blood pressure was fine (120 over 70) and there was no protein in my urine. There were white blood cells in my urine though.

They had me do a clean catch, and never called, which normally for my doctors office means everything is fine; they only call if something has come up.

I was still kinda concerned about the swelling, which has come and gone over the past week (though never as bad as at my shower), but I've been trying to ignore it because I felt like a hypochondriac when the doctor had said everything was fine.

So tonight, I'm at a restaurant, and I start seeing stars. Literally. At first I thought there was glitter falling from the ceiling, and then realized it was me. it was like tiny fireflies floating around in my vision. It lasted about a minute and a half, and then went away. But I remembered reading something about vision issues, and went to the index of one of my pregnancy books.

It's about pre eclampsia. So I went to the hospital. My fingers and ankles were also swelling at this time.

So my blood pressure was mildly elevated (128 over 87) and there was protein in my urine this time. My blood work came up fine (though I don't know exactly what that means in that I don't know what they were checking for in it anyway). I've been sent home with a 24 gallon urine collection jug since apparently that's a little more accurate than just peeing in a cup.

Basically, it sounds like they think I have pre-eclampsia, but it's not an official diagnosis yet, until I do the urine jug thing.

So here's my question.

Has anyone else had pre-eclampsia? What all did that mean in practical terms for your pregnancy? What effect did it have on you or your baby? Did they make you deliver early? Did you have to go on bedrest?

Any personal stories would be appreciated. I've read a lot and I know what it is in medical terms, but I'm wondering what exactly it means in practical terms.

Thank you guys so much.

X posted.

~Lindsay Carol~
33weeks 4 days
Due October 18th.
1 Believe in Miracles| I'm in awe of what God can do...

29 weeks 3 days [04 Aug 2007|04:58pm]
10 1/2 weeks to go. That feels like NOTHING. like... seconds away.

At the same time it feels like years.

I keep getting scared something's going to be wrong... even though every test came up great and everything... i just love this little guy so much and I couldn't live with something happening to him.

Someone Jason knows from work is pregnant too, and she just found out that her baby is only going to have one hand. I hear stuff like that and I think "how, before becoming pregnant, did I never realize just how scary making a person is?"

I never had any idea what it was like to feel this sick with worry.

I knew a lot about pregnancy in the clinical sense. I knew about symptoms and hormones, tests, prenatal care, and fetal development. I knew more than most, just because I'm such an information junkie. But I never knew how my stomach would clench at the thought of something happening to this little boy. I never knew how scared I would be of losing him. I never knew how I would feel whenever I heard about someone's child being hurt, kidnapped, going through surgery, having a genetic disorder, or even dying... i never knew that i could ache like it was my own son, and grab my stomach and silently beg God to be merciful.

This is the scariest thing I've ever done in my life. Not because of childbirth, or knowing that my life is never going to be the same, or fearing what will happen financially, or any of that. It's the scariest because my heart is going to go walking around outside my body forever and all I can do is hope that I raise him well and that God and fate will be merciful and not take him from me.

I never knew love could feel like this. I haven't even held him yet and I would already die for him. And it's funny because I'd heard women say things like that and thought "well yeah, I know" but I didn't. No one knows. Not until they get there for themselves and realize just how scary a place this world is, and that it's my God given responsibility to protect him and prepare him for all of that.

I hope that someday he'll think I did a good job.

I'm in awe of what God can do...

[22 Jun 2007|09:38am]
I'm really excited.... Jason (my fiance) FINALLY felt the Bean move!!!!!!!

Sorry, I just had to tell someone. He's officially kicking hard enough for outsiders to feel. YAY!

~Lindsay and 'The Boy Bean'~
I'm in awe of what God can do...

[12 Jun 2007|01:05pm]
I realize I haven't updated this in a while.

As of today, I am 21 weeks 5 days pregnant.

With a little boy. :)

I'm still feeling a nauseous, and I'm considering asking my doctor for anti nausea medication.

I just wish this little boy could know how much I love him already. :)

Furniture shopping is almost done. Actually, it is done. But I'm still keeping an eye out for bargains. You never know what you might need until you see it for practically free at a garage sale! lol.

Still working on the house. Making progress, slowly but surely.

I'm not working my job for sure now. I called her and told her that I couldn't. So that's a big weight off my chest.

well, that's all for now folks. love you all!

~Lindsay and 'The Boy Bean'~
I'm in awe of what God can do...

[19 May 2007|03:02pm]
i've been getting SUCH good deals on baby stuff i had to share with people.

~Lindsay and 'The Bean'~
18w 2d
I'm in awe of what God can do...

Daddy Issues [18 Apr 2007|01:24am]
i'm not really sure if this is a question, or a vent, or both. so i'm just gonna talk.

i have issues with my father. i love him, very much, but he has ripped me apart my entire life and betrayed me over and over. we had come to an okay point in our relationship for a few months, but about a month before i got pregnant, he started up again. at one point when i was about 6 weeks pregnant he was screaming at me until i threw up repeatedly because i was crying so hard, and even then didn't stop. i guess a little back story might help...

Thanks for being there to listen. any advice would be great.

~Lindsay and 'The Bean'~
2 Believe in Miracles| I'm in awe of what God can do...

yuck [10 Apr 2007|10:12pm]
I hate to start off this journal by complaining, but MAN am i bloated. I mean, I'm 3 months pregnant. and I'm so bloated I look like 6 months. lol.

I'm stunned at how many cool communities there are out there about pregnancy. It's so nice after having no one to talk to for so long.

Love you Bean!

I'm in awe of what God can do...

Hello! [10 Apr 2007|02:17pm]

Hey everybody!

Just testing out layouts and such... this will work for the time being. Hope to meet a bunch of you through communities and such. Short bio...

I'm 19 years old, and I live in Waterford Michigan. I'm an only child, and my parents separated when I was 14. I live with my mother and my fiance, Jason, who is 21. He goes to broadcasting school and I work as a nanny.

Jason and I have been best friends for a long time, and started dating May 18th of 2006. He moved in with me in October (also 2006), we got engaged December 25th, and on February 7th, 2007, I took a test and saw two little pink lines that changed our lives forever.

We weren't trying to get pregnant, but once the intial shock wore off, we were both overjoyed. Still are. This child, nestled safely in my body, only 3 inches long, has become my motivation, my passion, and all of my hopes and dreams and love rolled into one. I had no idea that love could feel like this.

I am currently 12 Weeks and 5 days pregnant. I had an ultrasound (First Test) yesterday and saw 'The Bean', as we call him or her, for the first time.  When that little head came into view on the screen I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that I could have created something so beautiful and perfect. Jason and I cried and laughed as we watched our little Bean kick its feet and arch its back. It even appeared to get the hiccups at one point!

The midway point of my pregnancy is June 1st, and hopefully somewhere around there I'll find out if this is a Ms. Bean or a Mr. Bean.  I'm due October 18th, 17 months from the day that Jason and I finally admitted that we were in love.

I'll keep updating often.

~Lindsay and 'The Bean'~

2 Believe in Miracles| I'm in awe of what God can do...

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